“She changes everything she touches”
I was asked to describe myself to satisfy your inquisitive mind. Describing myself is something that is difficult and often confuses me because I really don’t think that there is an accurate way to describe a living human being. People are (or should be) always evolving and changing, each new experience adding to who they are becoming. I will however make an effort to help you better understand me as a person.
I am a natural dominant. I was one before I even knew what that was or what it meant. As a child I was sheltered, growing up in a large family who protected me from the harsh realities of the outside world. I didn’t have a sexuality like the other girls who seemed to attract the boys like bees to honey. Instead most of the boys seemed intimidated by me or bent over backwards trying to be my friend. I discovered sex and sexuality very late in life through an unlikely source, a book.
I joined the Bay City Blues family in December of 2005, choosing to use a model that reflects the intensity of my personal and professional beliefs and lifestyle. I am of the opinion that the model I have chosen does me justice in every way. Why do I not use my own photos? That is simple. I value my privacy and reserve the right to open myself to those of my own choosing, rather than an internet wide audience.
My journey has been an interesting one at the very least. As I developed into the person I am today I found myself drawn to certain “types” of people. People passionate about their sexuality and discovering themselves and so open that I could hardly believe it. It seemed that they had nothing to hide and were not ashamed about any of their thoughts or desires. It was a welcome and refreshing change for someone in my position of uncertainty. Stepping into their world I felt at home and safe as I allowed myself to explore. Approached separately by a submissive and his Mistress and deciding to take my first steps towards my sexual destiny was terrifying and empowering. To make a long story short I was soon approached by a “seasoned” submissive who took this Mistress under his wing and taught me more than anyone could explain. I learned that a top was not the ultimate power and that my “power tripping” would neither be tolerated or appreciated. Power is a delicate balance based on trust and love, but I will go into that further elsewhere on this site. My growth began in earnest as I searched out the meanings behind different fetishes. What causes people to want to dress in panties? Why do some enjoy pain more than others? What is the fascination behind hypnosis? The more I learned the deeper I looked and soon found myself astonished by the possibilities.
Am I finished with my journey? Not hardly. I feel as if I have just begun and have much to learn still. I welcome outside opinion but don’t usually take it as gospel. I am a free thinking individual who is open to a universe of possibilities, some or all of which I invite you to explore with me.
Alexandra
